Feeling trapped

This post is not about my workout today, and some of you might not even understand what I'm talking about in this post.
When I started this journey I only did it for myself. I wasn't trying to impress anyone or trying to get compliments. I just wanted to feel better about myself and wanted to give myself every chance of living a very long life. Don't get me wrong the compliments are very appreciated and almost needed. I thought that because I was doing this only for myself that I would automatically see myself in a better light. I thought that some of my major health issues would disappear. I thought that I would be satisfied. I am learning now that this is going to be a big mental transformation too.
I never saw myself as "big and beautiful" like some women do (I'm kind of jealous of them). I always just saw myself as fat. I would even make fat jokes about myself. I thought that losing weight would change how I saw myself, but it hasn't. People tell me that I look great and I've done an awesome job. People even say that I inspire them. The problem is that I feel trapped by my mind because it still sees me as much larger than what I am now. It doesn't matter that I can fit in clothes that I haven't been able to wear in years. In my mind I still see the old me. I didn't realize how much of a mental and emotional change this physical change was going to have on me. I also realized I hod behind my fat. In a workout I still think I can't do certain things because I'm thinking of my old body. I know it is going to be an adjustment and it might be a slow one, but I hate feeling trapped by my own brain.
I also thought that some of my major health issues would go away. Now, some of them have, like my chronic knee pain has all but disappeared, and I have been able to cut my blood pressure meds in half. I can now bend over to tie my shoes and not feel like I am going to pass out because I cannot breathe. I can walk up and down stairs without being out of breath. My feet don't hurt from standing all day. The one thing that the doctors were convinced would change with weight loss did not though. I have had a fatty liver for as long as I can remember and the doctors have all blamed it on my weight (even though I told them it was a hereditary condition). Since I have lost weight my enzymes have actually gotten higher and I will have to go see a specialist for it. This is something that I knew in my heart wouldn't change but I had hoped I was wrong and the doctors were actually right for once.   There are a lot of things that have improved in my life health wise, but this is just something I will have to accept I can't do anything about by losing weight.
None of this post should make anyone think that I am giving up and quitting. That is definitely not what this post is meant for. I just know that many people lose weight for many different reasons and are discouraged when they don't get exactly what they want. Am I discouraged?  Maybe a little. But, I just know that I have to work harder mentally to be able to see myself the way that others see me. It won't be an overnight thing but I'm not giving up. I'm not even close to my goal weight yet!!  As for the health issues, they will work themselves out and there is nothing else I can do besides what I've been doing. I know a lot of you probably think I'm crazy but I know some of you will get it.