Tuesday, February 26, 2013
My Second Filthy Fifty
Today was different than the first time I saw Filthy Fifty as the WOD on the website. Last time I wasn't scared until right before we started the workout. Today it was a mental battle all day to even decide if I wanted to try it again. The first time was only a month ago and pretty fresh on my mind. I could feel the anxiety that I felt that night right before the WOD and the feeling of defeat when I had mentally checked out. I went straight to the box after work because I knew if I went home I wouldn't go tonight. The night started off frustrating to me because I was WAY behind everyone in the warmup when we ran 800m. I'm usually the last runner in but everyone was already setting up for the WOD when I got in. I partnered up with Kesha and we set up our station. Someone had already gotten the jump rope I like to use so I wasn't sure what was going to happen there. Travis said I could just row because I was struggling with this weighted jump rope I was trying to use. I told him that there was nothing wrong with my knees and I would just have to figure it out. Luckily one of the other girls had left her jump rope sitting near me so I ended up using it. I was very frustrated with myself though because I should be able to just adapt. It took me a long while to finish those stupid jump ropes but I was so glad when that part was over. The burpees came next. Last time I just did push-ups because I had just gotten back from surgery but this time I actually did burpees. I still can't really jump down to the push-up because my hands do still hurt some. It was more like a crawl up and down, but it was more than a regular push-up. I actually did wall balls this time too. I only used a ten pound ball but I did do them. Last time I used a 35# bar for the push presses but this time I used a 45# bar. Knees to elbows, jumping pull-ups, kettle bell swings, supermans, and walking lunges were all pretty much the same as last time. We did the WOD in reverse tonight so the box jumps came last. I wasn't nearly as nervous about them tonight as I was before because I have been working on them. I am still a little unsure about the 16 inch because I'm afraid of falling so I put a 45# plate on my 12 inch box, which makes it something like 15 inches. It did seem really high at the end of this workout because my legs were so tired but I really wanted to do it. I think Travis saw me hesitating and he told Carna to have me take the plate off and just make it 12 inches. I think both Carna and Travis were surprised when I told them NO. In my mind I had come this far in this WOD that I was NOT compromising at the end! I knew that if I took that plate off it would be easier but that I would have been mad at myself later. They wrote my time up on the board but I honestly couldn't tell you what it was, and I didn't care. I finished and I did more than I did the first time, and that was ALL that mattered to me. I am so glad that I didn't WOD dodge today!!
Monday, February 25, 2013
Highlights
So I have been really bad about blogging lately. I could blame it on life just being crazy, but the real reason is that I have just been really frustrated with myself. Travis constantly tells me that I am way too hard on myself and I'm sure he's right. There are a few things that I will highlight though. Last week we did a five minute EMOM of five unbroken deadlifts. The RX weight was 225# for girls. I wasn't sure what weight I was going to be doing because my max is only 235#. When Chad said that I would be doing 225# I thought he was kidding and crazy! I didn't think there was anyway I could do that much weight unbroken for that many rounds. Again, my coach had more faith in me than I did and knew I could do it. I felt so great at the end of those five minutes because I had done everyone of them unbroken!! In the past couple of weeks I have also gotten much better at jumping rope. I am definitely not the fastest person but I am not completely terrified by it now. Tonight we did a WOD that included 430 single jump ropes. I was the last person to finish, but my time wasn't over 15 minutes. I wasn't too far behind everyone else either! I can also do a 12 inch box jump without hesitating now! This was a big accomplishment because before I would just stare at the box for at least a few minutes before I would make that first jump. I can do the 16 inch but it still scares me a bit. Oh, I almost forgot, I can do a pull-up now. Granted it is with two bands, but I can still do it!!
I know I have gotten better at a lot of things but I have just been really frustrated that my hands do hurt still and my mind tells me that I still can't do somethings. My mind is still stuck in the body I once had that didn't do anything and it is playing catch up (but at a much slower pace than I like). I am so very blessed to have the coaches at Crossfit2L2Q that believe in me even when I don't and push me to my limits. The support I get from them and my class that stays late some nights just to cheer me on as I finish a WOD is nothing less than amazing! So, even though I'm frustrated with how I've been doing I know that I have an awesome support team that believes in me and will push me to succeed. And that makes up for any frustration and doubt I may have in myself.
I know I have gotten better at a lot of things but I have just been really frustrated that my hands do hurt still and my mind tells me that I still can't do somethings. My mind is still stuck in the body I once had that didn't do anything and it is playing catch up (but at a much slower pace than I like). I am so very blessed to have the coaches at Crossfit2L2Q that believe in me even when I don't and push me to my limits. The support I get from them and my class that stays late some nights just to cheer me on as I finish a WOD is nothing less than amazing! So, even though I'm frustrated with how I've been doing I know that I have an awesome support team that believes in me and will push me to succeed. And that makes up for any frustration and doubt I may have in myself.
Sunday, February 10, 2013
Playing catch up
I'm sorry I have neglected my blog this past week. This past week showed me exactly how much your workouts can be affected by what is going on in life. I haven't really been sleeping very well for about three weeks and I had already seen the changes that had made to my workouts. Then this past Sunday one of my dachshunds went down in the back and Monday I took her to the vet. The workout on Monday wasn't great for me because I was stressed and hadn't gotten any sleep Sunday night. Then Tuesday was the day everything really fell apart. I realized there was nothing I could do for Tensley, my dachshund, and that I was going to have to make some really hard decisions. An added bonus to that day was that I locked myself out of my house. Wednesday was a treat because I didn't even get through the warmup without falling while I was trying to run. I skinned up my knee, elbow, and hands. My hands have hurt ever since that fall. I have physically been at Crossfit everyday but my mind and emotions have been somewhere else. My heart wasn't in it last week. I wanted to wait and post about the week after it was over and not while I was in the middle of so much emotional pain on top of bad workouts.
Because of everything that went on this past week I'm just going to focus on a couple of workouts. On Tuesday we did five rounds of 10 dead lifts and 150 single jump ropes. I was only doing 165# in dead lift so I wasn't that concerned about that part. The jump ropes were a completely different matter though. I have struggled with these for a while and almost cried just thinking about how long it was going to take me to do them. I got through the first round of dead lifts pretty quick and started jumping rope. I wasn't even half way through with my first 150 and I realized that Katherine was on round three! I finally got through the first round and started the dead lifts again. I dreaded getting done with the lifts because that meant I had to jump rope again! I struggled through three and a half rounds, and, yes, tears came to my eyes many times during this workout. I begged Chad to just let me do 150 dead lifts. Anything would be better than that stupid jump rope. When I was half way through with the jump ropes in round four everyone else was already done. Travis came down to where I was jumping rope and said I was going to finish the workout, and he knew I could do it. I told him I had a whole other round to go. He said that was fine and I could do it! I'm glad that him and Chad had faith in me because I certainly didn't! My entire class stayed and cheered me on. Travis did burpees beside me while I was jumping on the fourth round. I did the last lifts pretty quick and got back to jumping rope. Travis did kettle bell swings next to me while I was doing round five. At one point I really didn't think I could keep going and Travis stepped over to me and reminded me of how far I have come and that I could do this too! It took a few minutes for me to finally finish all of those jump ropes but I did!! It took me over 30 minutes to finish the workout and I held the class there late because it took so long. But, they stayed and cheered me on until the end. That day was one of the hardest that I have had mentally and physically (except for the Filthy Fifty) but I was overwhelmed by the support I got from my coaches and class. They didn't have to stay late to watch me finish and Travis certainly didn't have to do burpees and kettle bell swings while I was finishing those last rounds. But they did stay and Travis knew that it would push me and make me feel more comfortable if someone else was working out with me. I am truly blessed.
Thursday we did a workout that had three rounds if various amounts of back squats, burpees, body rows, and box jumps. I couldn't do burpees because my hands hurt every time I put pressure on them. Travis said I could do jump ropes instead of the burpees (I was really excited about that---I thought about how I could possibly do burpees instead of jump ropes, but there was no way with the pain in my hands). I did do the RX for back squats which was 95#. The plan was that I was going to do 12 inch box jumps too. I did the first round of back squats and body rows pretty easily. When I got to the box jumps I froze. Yes, I know I have done it before but my mind just said I couldn't do it for some reason. Chad tried to convince me that I could do it but I just couldn't. I ended up doing 16 inch step ups for the first two rounds instead. On the last round I decided that I was going to try the box jump again. The first seven I balanced myself with the bars using both my hands, on the eighth I used one hand, and on the final one I didn't use my hands for balancing. The workout took me over 19 minutes (it would have taken a lot less time if my mind would have just told me I could do those box jumps).
Friday was a hard day because I ended up having to say goodbye to Tensley. I didn't want to go home after I left the vet's office so I went to open gym at the box. I wasn't sure what I was going to do but I did want to work on my jump ropes and box jumps. I ended up making up a workout where I did 10, 15, 20, 25, and 30 12 inch box jumps with 50 single jump ropes in between each round. That first box jump took a while. I hesitated for several minutes, but once I got going it wasn't so bad. On the second round of jump ropes I finally learned how to jump rope without the extra hop in the middle. I got through the workout and then I just wanted to see if I could jump any higher than the 12 inch box. Chad helped me make it 14 inches and then Travis said I could do 16. I wasn't sure about the 16 but I wanted to try it. I ended up doing 10 of the 16 inch box jumps!! Although it was a very hard day for me emotionally I think that the pressure of the week was finally off of me and I could focus a little bit more. I'm pretty sure Tensley was watching over me and giving me strength to believe in myself too.
Because of everything that went on this past week I'm just going to focus on a couple of workouts. On Tuesday we did five rounds of 10 dead lifts and 150 single jump ropes. I was only doing 165# in dead lift so I wasn't that concerned about that part. The jump ropes were a completely different matter though. I have struggled with these for a while and almost cried just thinking about how long it was going to take me to do them. I got through the first round of dead lifts pretty quick and started jumping rope. I wasn't even half way through with my first 150 and I realized that Katherine was on round three! I finally got through the first round and started the dead lifts again. I dreaded getting done with the lifts because that meant I had to jump rope again! I struggled through three and a half rounds, and, yes, tears came to my eyes many times during this workout. I begged Chad to just let me do 150 dead lifts. Anything would be better than that stupid jump rope. When I was half way through with the jump ropes in round four everyone else was already done. Travis came down to where I was jumping rope and said I was going to finish the workout, and he knew I could do it. I told him I had a whole other round to go. He said that was fine and I could do it! I'm glad that him and Chad had faith in me because I certainly didn't! My entire class stayed and cheered me on. Travis did burpees beside me while I was jumping on the fourth round. I did the last lifts pretty quick and got back to jumping rope. Travis did kettle bell swings next to me while I was doing round five. At one point I really didn't think I could keep going and Travis stepped over to me and reminded me of how far I have come and that I could do this too! It took a few minutes for me to finally finish all of those jump ropes but I did!! It took me over 30 minutes to finish the workout and I held the class there late because it took so long. But, they stayed and cheered me on until the end. That day was one of the hardest that I have had mentally and physically (except for the Filthy Fifty) but I was overwhelmed by the support I got from my coaches and class. They didn't have to stay late to watch me finish and Travis certainly didn't have to do burpees and kettle bell swings while I was finishing those last rounds. But they did stay and Travis knew that it would push me and make me feel more comfortable if someone else was working out with me. I am truly blessed.
Thursday we did a workout that had three rounds if various amounts of back squats, burpees, body rows, and box jumps. I couldn't do burpees because my hands hurt every time I put pressure on them. Travis said I could do jump ropes instead of the burpees (I was really excited about that---I thought about how I could possibly do burpees instead of jump ropes, but there was no way with the pain in my hands). I did do the RX for back squats which was 95#. The plan was that I was going to do 12 inch box jumps too. I did the first round of back squats and body rows pretty easily. When I got to the box jumps I froze. Yes, I know I have done it before but my mind just said I couldn't do it for some reason. Chad tried to convince me that I could do it but I just couldn't. I ended up doing 16 inch step ups for the first two rounds instead. On the last round I decided that I was going to try the box jump again. The first seven I balanced myself with the bars using both my hands, on the eighth I used one hand, and on the final one I didn't use my hands for balancing. The workout took me over 19 minutes (it would have taken a lot less time if my mind would have just told me I could do those box jumps).
Friday was a hard day because I ended up having to say goodbye to Tensley. I didn't want to go home after I left the vet's office so I went to open gym at the box. I wasn't sure what I was going to do but I did want to work on my jump ropes and box jumps. I ended up making up a workout where I did 10, 15, 20, 25, and 30 12 inch box jumps with 50 single jump ropes in between each round. That first box jump took a while. I hesitated for several minutes, but once I got going it wasn't so bad. On the second round of jump ropes I finally learned how to jump rope without the extra hop in the middle. I got through the workout and then I just wanted to see if I could jump any higher than the 12 inch box. Chad helped me make it 14 inches and then Travis said I could do 16. I wasn't sure about the 16 but I wanted to try it. I ended up doing 10 of the 16 inch box jumps!! Although it was a very hard day for me emotionally I think that the pressure of the week was finally off of me and I could focus a little bit more. I'm pretty sure Tensley was watching over me and giving me strength to believe in myself too.
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